Since I don't do much else with my life right now except answer the whims of Benevolent Dictator.
1. I am loving the Snugli right now. BD is currently passed out and I can type at the same time. I'm so thrilled because now I can do stuff like brush my teeth, chores and anything else that ISN'T me with my ass planted on the couch watching horrible reality TV shows. Hopefully I can also use this to go out and do stuff so I don't feel like I'm chained to the house.
Note to VH-1: Why Rock of Love? Did Flavor Flav want too much money to return? And what happened to music videos?
2. Even though you get naps during the day, the 4 a.m. feeding/rocking/attempting to get BD to sleep time isn't easy. She's just up and raring to go. You'll rock her and her eyes close and her breathing deepens, but when you put her in the crib, she's wide awake and ready to PARTY!
3. One mom once said that after three weeks, she forgot what it was like to have a life without her baby. I'm not there yet. I remember it quite well (oh the sleep! I'll never bitch about getting five uninterrupted hours again!), but it's different. It's not this life. And while this life is trying at times (admittedly, right now, there are times where I wish I didn't have to answer her every call and scream), I'm enjoying it more as I learn about it more.
4. I miss writing. I miss having the time to write. I miss writing about stupid stuff like Vh-1 or MTV or ranting about the state of our current culture. Right now all my thoughts are consumed by her. Is she eating alright? Is she sleeping OK? What's up with the projectile pooping? I figure things will slowly reach and equilibrium, but right now, there are moments where I miss the old me.
5. And now for something completely superficial -- We saw the movie Alexander (thanks Netflix!) and I have to say that was probably the most incoherent sack of shit I've ever seen. Angelina Jolie's accent apparently comes from Translyvania and I never knew that Alexander had an Irish accent. Not to mention, Angelina Jolie is only a year older than Colin Farrell and she's PLAYING HIS MOTHER! It's amusing that Oliver Stone couldn't even give up some of his consipracy theories -- even for a movie about an ancient world conqueror.
5 comments:
I really, really appreciate your candor in talking about your feelings with parenthood. I think that with all major life changes there is a period of adjustment, but we don't always take the time out to acknowledge. You're just supposed to suck it up and keep going. I like hearing about your thoughts and feelings as you and BD get to know each other.
And I will cali/IM you tonight, if you are up and around.
K. --
I'll be up for it, depending on her. Maybe I'll just force Jeff to hold onto her for a bit so I can get some uninterrupted time for myself.
I have to second K's thoughts. Having 13...or is it 15?..nieces and nephews, I know that it's not all peaches and snuggles and smells of baby powder and no more tears shampoo, but I think so many moms feel they'd be cast as "bad mommies" if they remotely stated that sometimes it's just not pretty. I think that's silly, but it is what it is.
Basically, it just attests to what Keidra's always said...yer da coolest!
It's funny that we're moving in completely opposite directions. You have greatly increased your responsibilities and have no time to write. At almost the same time, I greatly reduced my responsibilities and write all day long (although you'd never know it.).
Ok, relating to your little sidenote...I'll totally admit, I also watched Rock of Love. LOL. Amazingly, Brett really did have a few profound comments. And I think I'd prefer him to Flavor Flav.
Then again, I may be a bit biased, seeing as I'm seeing Poison live on Saturday night!
And in relation to the rest of it...*HUG!* You're doing fine!
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