One advantage to being pregnant is that you don't have your period. However, your hormones take over and run rampant like a PMS trip that doesn't end because there's no bleeding to bring you back to earth.
I got a close look at the hormonal insanity last night as the reality of having a baby and family seeped into my mind. In a few months, any spontaneity will go out the window as a little one demands my attention, vigilance and care. While I know deep down it's worth it (please oh powers that be don't let my child be an emo-loving whiner), it still scares the shit out of me.
It's not like Jeff and I are spontaneous right now. But the option is going away -- while we've never run off for a spontaneous weekend together, that option won't even be on the table in a few months.
So yeah, I had a bit of a meltdown last night -- a hyperventilating, sobbing meltdown where my poor husband is trying to talk me down off the ledge. Which he did successfully.
And it's not just this -- a lot of things are making the tear ducts overflow. Listening to Sunday Bloody Sunday -- cue the waterworks. Watching a promo show for Ugly Betty -- I felt water coursing down my cheeks.
Good lord. This is going to be a long five months.
*Title stolen from this Queen of Wands webcomic.
1 comment:
Aw Like I said before, it's natural to have some fear with such a big life change. Hang in there! :)
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