Ghosts of my past

Just so you know, I'm still floating on a little cloud of post-concert euphoria. Every time I hear U2 songs that were performed at the concert, I get a stupid grin on my face. I remember the crowd, Adam's smirk, the emotion and all of the fun.

But I also remember seeing a face that I haven't seen since my wedding. Her name is Deanna and she was my buddy through high school and college. She stood up at my wedding as a bridesmaid. After we all graduated, we lost touch with each other.

So it was weird when I looked around in the crowd and thought that I had seen her. I'm fairly certain it was her, but I don't know for sure. I was tempted to go over there (she only was about 15 feet away), but given how packed the floor was, I didn't think it was wise to give up my spot. Not to mention, I thought I'd see her after the concert and have a chance to say hello.

Obviously it didn't happen. I watched for her face for a bit, but she soon faded into the crowd and after the concert, there was no way I was going to find her. Kinda sad really. I miss her sometimes. I would like to know that she's doing fine. I wonder if she's still single, has a boyfriend or got a job that she wanted. I wonder if she's happy. I wonder if her family drama is over and she's at peace now that she's 30 (why is it that most of my close friends are a year older than me?). I wonder if she saw me.

I know that in some cases, there's a lifespan to friendships. Most of the time you just lose touch with people and they fade away into the past. We were losing touch at the end of college -- the usual story of "yeah we should get together" but never really do. But for that brief moment, seeing her face made me want to see if that lifespan had ended.

Ah well, where ever you are Deanna, I wish you nothing but the best (and then some).